Posts tagged Lent
Posts tagged Lent
As my fellow Catholics prepare for the Lenten season I am reminded by the best sermon I ever heard about Lent and Sacrifice while a freshman at the University of Dallas. I am not going to wax on. I find many people who profess and talk about their faith as fake as they come - probably because if you are talking about it so much are you still talking yourself into it? Just be. Just live it. Just do it (go Nike!)
I just have a few points to make:
My freshman year at college among scholars and theologians has taught me so much, but the Fat Tuesday sermon by Fr. Kelly in 1989 was the best. Now I must log off and myself prepare for Lent.
Lent and what it means for me:
Every year at the end of February, I like to go away on a private trip, alone, sans family. Most of you know by now that I have had a child and placed for adoption before I met J2. This happened 19 years ago. Lent is a constant reminder of this time in my life. The time when I lost my first child and the first person I loved at the same time. It was particularly difficult to lose two people at once. Don’t get me wrong - all my by own actions and choices, but still hard nonetheless. I was pulled through by faith and faith alone. Because of this faith, I was made stronger. I’ve always believed I can do anything and this is rooted in my love from my parents and my Catholic upbringing.
I’ve had a great upbringing in my church. I’m Roman Catholic. There is not much easy about the Catholic faith. I am the first to admit, I haven’t been the best steward of Christianity these past few years. In fact, I’ve been a non-believer for sometime. I keep going back to a conversation I had with a high school friend last summer and his words have been there, just under the surface egging me on, bringing me back to the church that built me. So 2011 I am making a commitment to come back.
Every year at this time, I take time for myself - it is my new year. Ash Wednesday, a day of repentance, a cleaning house time, is where I put those things I reflected upon in late February, agreed to work on - into action. But first, I have a bone to pick with people who speak of their sacrifices publicly.
Lent isn’t about giving up stuff. So if that is all you’re doing - well, you’re doing it wrong! It grates on my nerves and in the time of the blogs, twitter, FB, etc… I’m going to just take a minute to point out that if you speak of your sacrifices on social media and garner sympathy, then you’re missing the point!
For me, Lent is a time of sacrifice, but also working so much harder on all those things spiritual - not specifically church. I am praying you all have a great Lenten season. Mine won’t be easy, but hey, it’s not supposed to be. Catholicism has never been easy. As Father Kelly (priest from University of Dallas) once told me: it’s not for wimps. I miss those days when I would roll out of bed and walk to morning mass, or noon mass. It was easier back then to be a better Catholic. No more excuses!
What does my Lenten season have in store? I’m not sure. What do I have in store for Lent - I can’t tell you, but trust me, it will make me stronger.
photo taken by me in July 2010 at the St. Matthews Catholic church sports park. Isabel was in a session working on her selective mutism and I was at my wits end. I had just started running and I sought some peace and quiet in the shade. I came across about 14 crosses on this walking path. It is where my journey began to bring me back to the church. I felt like a complete failure as a parent with no where to turn. I look up and see this. You should check it out sometime. It’s on Wurzbach.